i cannot deal with this anymore
i've had a new, large, painful boil on my labia for about a month straight. i've tried just about everything i have access to that has worked for me in the past aside from I&D of course. i start grad school soon, i'm already disabled enough as it is, and i can't concentrate on anything. can't move around and do things or sit without feeling the pain shocks and itch. i feel like i'm genuinely sick and the fatigue is so bad.
things i've tried:
- been on cosentyx for several months now (it has weakened flares and put me in remission aside from this most recent flare)
- sitz baths with epsom salt
- warm/cold alternating compresses
- vicks/tiger balm
- two different drawing salves (magic healer and owell naturals)
- clindamycin wipes
- nizoral
- panoxyl wash
- remedy soap
i don't have hibiclens on hand and i cannot afford it rn, plus it's never really helped with active flares for me. only as a preventative. can't afford anything rn, i get paid monthly. i also feel like i will break out or get a secondary infection from using it on my genitals. but look at all the other bullshit i've put on it and i guess it doesn't matter so much.
at this point should i go to urgent care? this shit is making me suicidal--the emotional toll that it is taking on both myself and my partner, our sex life, my own sex life, i cannot take it anymore. it's right next to my clitoris so i can't even masturbate without being in pain. i already deal with chronic pain and mobility issues on the daily. what else can i do besides lancing it myself? (i won't.) it's embarrassing to go to urgent care for something like this. can't see my dermatologist for another month. if i gotta go through this for that much longer i probably will not be here anymore. so, what do i do? where do i go from here? i'm fucking tired, boss.