I'll be teaching for my first year this year. And i want to understand what i'm doing not just memorize formulas and concepts but understand them and be able to explain them to a child. I want to restart at fundamentals. What plan should i adopt or what should i start with to finally understand. I will teach to 11th grade
As Christians we must fear the Lord and obey his commands. But i keep failing Him and me. I know that i got free from sin and he has no power whatsoever on me.
I struggle with lust a lot since my the beginning of my walk with God. Firstly it was hard for me because it was difficult to believe that i was free from sin (just like that). But since i realise that i also realise that the reason because i keep going back after that was because i affectionate this particular sin.
I pray that the Lord change my love for that sin in love for Him. I made promise to him to keep his temple holy, but i fell at the fisrt temptations.
This time i fell by curiosity i don't even know if you can be curious about a sin. It was the thoughts like oh how this p*rn web site is on a laptop you never try it. It was only on phone. And despite the conviction i felt i relapse again. It was like the demon were adapting to me by using differents approach and i see them comming but fail again and again and again
1 week I never do more than 1 week. I can't tell anyone about it because at this state the reason i keep falling is just that i'm disobedient. I can't look my parents in the eyes. I say that i keep ameliorating when they ask me about this sin. I can't make a promise to God again... When will i have a relationship with him and just move on from this at this state.
I'm panicking. I'm lost. I'm tired of this sin