Is This Normal?
So I’ve had back issues for eight years now. Nothing ever showed up on any scans or any testing done by specialists. Everyone told me I was making it up and sent me home. As of the last four years, it has gotten exponentially worse. I now need a key in the wheelchair. My pain gets so bad that paralyzes me. I have seizures. I finally got the diagnosis of functional neurological disorder yesterday. I’m happy to have answers but at the same time the last few days I’ve been really upset. I took things for granted when I was able to walk normally. Yes I was an athletics, but there are other things I didn’t do that I wanted. Now I’m angry. I’m angry that I can’t do what I see others doing online, I’m angry that I can’t do things that I’ve always wanted to try, I’m angry that I can’t just get up and walk normally, I’m angry that i need help with simple tasks. I am so angry and frustrated and overwhelmed with all of it. It’s to the point that I can’t even be fully excited and happy about finally getting a diagnosis. Is this normal? Is it normal to think this way?