Lost virginity at 35 years old to my ex. Couldn’t handle she been with 5 guys before me
It’s been about 3 months since our break up & I still love this woman & can’t get over her . There’s a part of me that wants to get back with her while feeling it may not be a good idea cause I can’t get over she’s had sex with 5 guys before me. These are guys she was in a relationship with . I’m a Christian & my views on sex is sacred . Part of me regrets losing my virginity. I felt in my heart I truly loved this woman & wanted to build a future with her . I honestly don’t have the desire to meet other women even after these 3 months cause I still love my ex. Part of me wishes I wasn’t so hung up on the guys she slept before me . This woman was my best friend & I’m just having a hard time moving on cause I still love her & wants to get back with her but it would be difficult cause it hurts loving her while I still feel a certain way about her past . Her & I would pray before every meal together . I’m honestly lost & still hurting a lot everyday even though the break up was about 3 months ago . I just need help navigating this . Any input would help . Thanks !