I’m curious how long they would have to sit with the knowledge they will die. Realistically, I am sure they would burn to death long before they reached the core so I guess this is double question, how long before they died vs how long would it take assuming they are invincible?
The first one was an unidentified “freebie” with an order. I’ve wondered what it is for years. Doesn’t glow under black light and not magnetic. When I tried my mohs kit it was ~6.5
The second one was advertised as ruby in zoisite but no ruby to be seen. I tested it under a black light and it didn’t pick up any ruby flashes, not even tiny ones when I used a magnifying glass. Could it just be really low quality? I don’t know of any other crystals that look like that but figured I’d ask for second opinions. Mohs hardness ~7.5
Part of my belief system and how I practice is tightly intertwined with the idea that the universe has a plan alongside other common practices of course. I describe it as we are all threads that cross back and forth forming a tapestry of what the universe has to offer us. It’s how I comforted myself. Shit gets fucked? My thread has changed directions but maybe it’s to find a better thread to cross or intertwine. But recently I had a serious of severe tragedies over the course of 90 days. 2 sudden and tragic deaths, 1 near death when my partner attempted and nearly completed suicide leading to a pause on our relationship, my mom has lost a majority of her cognitive function following a car accident, suddenly lost a lot of friends and family due to said tragic events, my cat got mysteriously ill and they still can’t figure it out, and my house needs $20k worth of repairs due to a sudden collapse of something I don’t understand (I leave that stuff to people in my life who understand construction). It’s hard to stay grounded and practice what I believe in for comfort.
Has anyone else gone through this? I see it a lot in Christianity but not really with my pagan pals. I feel alone now without my tapestry along with the loss of support I described.
Additionally, any ideas on how to reconnect and regain my “faith”? Should I branch out? Give it time? I tried finding local orgs but the city I’m in is pretty lacking in community outside of some witchy boutiques and the occasional pop up tarot reading. I would categorize myself as an eclectic pagan but want to learn more about other belief systems to see if something else might ground me more.
Ever since I was a kid I noticed these numbers.
- My high school and college GPA were 3.27 and 3.9
- I’ve always done things in groups of 3, 9 times. I didn’t notice it until my partner did
- our anniversary is 9/27
- I see these numbers everywhere on license plates
- I have been counting things in my home, 27 plushies, 9 books on each shelf, I have 3 duplicates of many things
- on dates that include combinations of those numbers, significant things happen to me from good or tragic news
- in 2027, I’ll be 30 and it will be my 9th year in my field and the company I just joined has 27 employees
- I’ve never lost a bet where I bet any of the numbers listed (I’m not a gambler as I lost someone to gambling, this is more like friends casually making joke bets)
-when I was 27, I met my partner who was my 9th match on my hinge profile and 3rd date I went on once I started dating again, we started dating 9/27 and he had no idea about my “weird number thing” at the time
I feel like I’m going crazy sometimes, sometimes I worry it’s some type of OCD like my brother has (his is intrusive thoughts more than rituals though) but I’m incredibly spiritual and find meaning in so many things. I’ve been curious about this for years and don’t know where to start on if it is coincidence or if it’s some type of self-fulfilling thing where I tend to seek those numbers out subconsciously, but what if the universe is trying to tell me something important. Do anyone know where to start? Does this sound like a sign I’m missing or just me having favorite numbers I happen to notice?