Very difficult relationship with parents, should I move out?
As the title says I have a very difficult relationship with my parents and had quite an unhappy childhood. I’m 23 and I live at home with them but we are constantly fighting all the time particularly with my dad. However while my parents particularly my father can be difficult people sometimes I am always very volatile and sensitive to everything about them. It’s not a case of me as purely victim and them as aggressor. I know that other people could manage living with them like my brother can but I cannot. I either overreact to them or try to hold my tongue and find myself so angry and upset I feel sick and cannot do anything.
I am obviously old enough to live away from them but I am very anxious, depressed, unorganised, angry and not doing well with the support of my parents and I think I would do even worse without the things they do for me. I don’t know which is worse continuing to live with them and argue but at least maintaining some relationship or moving away and potentially causing a deeper rift by not being in contact until I feel I am ready to reconcile properly at which point it could be too late. I would also not be able to talk much with my Grandmas who are both in their 80s.
I struggle very much to keep a job or leave the house and I have no friends except one person I text so clearly I would struggle on my own. I still feel like a child and I have very poor social skills that would mean I would be unfit in the real world on my own. I am fairly certain if I moved away from my parents I would struggle a lot, rent is extremely expensive where I live and wages are low unless you are very qualified and experienced which I am not. I would probably become even more of a shut in and I worry I would give in to sexual sin with a real man beyond my struggle with pornography.
Despite all of the issues I described it is possible as I have savings but I am unsure if it is wise.