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Old photo because I haven’t been cooking for myself properly. I tried making some curry from chicken liver (cheapest protein I could find) and I must’ve not cleaned the liver properly because the curry smelled and tasted inedible and I had to throw it all away. Now I’m still hungry and feeling so awful for wasting food.

I’m reading and self-studying a lot lately under the pretense that I can be productive in spite of chronic depression and unemployment. Yet when I go home from the library I can’t sleep at night. (And I already cut back on the coffee.) So my eyes stay peeled to the computer until 3am. I haven’t cleaned my room in months. Have been stretching cheap takeouts for weeks. I am so lonely and empty. I can’t function around other people and they don’t need me at all. Maybe I’m destined to be in this state until I die.