u/sans-the-boneyboy

Hey, this is my first post here as said by the title, my diagnosis was like 1 and half years ago but I had this when I was 16/17 now nearly 20 so around 3 years I had this for, causing me to miss my last year of school from constant flare ups and seen many doctors. I have no medication or anything just been to recommended treatment after recommended treatment, nothing has changed. I left high school early essentially and have never moved pasted that because i can't get past this and now anxiety causes flare ups that sets off a chain reaction around my body, i try to get better but it all feels for nothing. I want to give up and rot away. I want to fade away. I am ruled by my own mind and stuck.

Since the beginning of this year at least once a month or so, i dream that I have a daughter. She knows me and I know her, we walk and talk together, it's good but when i wake up I don't know her. I don't know who they are. Why do I dream that I have a daughter who isn't real?

Sorry if the grammar sucks it is 3am