u/sayeesh_jagdale

MITAOE Alandi ( computer engineering)

Or

PCCOER ( computer engineering)

10k runs in test will put you up with the greats having the biggest dream of a batsman

5k runs in t20i will make you the first one to do it

I'm 17M and I don't know what to do next in life. Nothing really goes my way and i never get what i want. Everyone said you should always dream big and i did but always got disappointed. Firstly, i never did well in school, neither in academics ( sirf 4th standard tak ache aate the) nor in extra curricular. I was a very low confidence kid and i also wasn't allowed to join any sports coaching and our school didn't encourage any sports either. Hence i wasn't able to achieve.

Then in 10th grade my father wanted me to get 90+ and never have i ever wanted to disappoint him even if it took anything but i only secured 89 because i wasn't given any internals in English literature ( yes ICSE) but i didn't protest i let it go and decided that I'm gonna go in the tech field.

This year i gave my jee and failed(82) and i broke apart. I did everything i could but still couldn't make it. Now i don't know if i have the courage to do anything further. I'm highly anxious and after this I'm scared of life. I'm scared of always staying mediocre piece of shit and the ' wasted potential'. I wanna make it big in something but ig i never will.

Why is it that no matter what efforts you make you never get what you want? I also fell in love with a girl. We were friends but i used to try and flirt but she made it clear that she didn't want me. Man I'm done, what do i do?

I'm 17M and I don't know what to do next in life. Nothing really goes my way and i never get what i want. Everyone said you should always dream big and i did but always got disappointed. Firstly, i never did well in school, neither in academics ( sirf 4th standard tak ache aate the) nor in extra curricular. I was a very low confidence kid and i also wasn't allowed to join any sports coaching and our school didn't encourage any sports either. Hence i wasn't able to achieve.

Then in 10th grade my father wanted me to get 90+ and never have i ever wanted to disappoint him even if it took anything but i only secured 89 because i wasn't given any internals in English literature ( yes ICSE) but i didn't protest i let it go and decided that I'm gonna go in the tech field.

This year i gave my jee and failed(82) and i broke apart. I did everything i could but still couldn't make it. Now i don't know if i have the courage to do anything further. I'm highly anxious and after this I'm scared of life. I'm scared of always staying mediocre piece of shit and the ' wasted potential'. I wanna make it big in something but ig i never will.

Why is it that no matter what efforts you make you never get what you want? I also fell in love with a girl. We were friends but i used to try and flirt but she made it clear that she didn't want me. Man I'm done, what do i do?