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so this book im currently reading got published last march, but apparently it hasn't been added to the goodreads database yet. i've got no results despite searching by isbn, title or author. i thought any book published to/available on amazon would automatically show up on goodreads as well, but turns out i was wrong (?)

i'd still like to log this book, so.. this might sound really dumb, but is there any way to do so?

has anyone else here ever dealt with (atrocious) never-ending bone pain — especially in the legs, arms, hips and lower back —, that seems to have no remedy?

in a few days, it'll be 3 years without a period for me. except for this, i've been doing fine and im almost back at my starting weight. i had my bone density checked, and the damage is not as bad as i thought it would've been. i've also been prescribed calcium and vitamin d supplements, which im taking regularly. plus, i've increased my calorie intake recently, as im trying to regain those last kilos back in hopes of restoring my period, of course. lastly, i think it's worth mentioning im pretty inactive — i dont workout and i rarely hit more than 6k steps a day (if any at all, actually).

so, why the hell does this horrible pain persist? could the last aspect — being sedentary — be its cause? i had almost ended my life because of how extremely i was overcompensating back when i was deep into my ed, i've been trying to give myself as much rest as possible since getting into recovery. no doctor seems to take this issue seriously when i bring it up. i could really use some advice ):

for context: i've struggled with extreme bloating since the very first moment i had started eating again, which was just a few days before risking my life because of the disorder and getting hospitalized, in april 2024.

i stayed there for over three months; got out in july, still extremely underweight but much, much better than when i got in (it's worth mentioning i've actually been underweight my entire life, even pre-disorder, while being perfectly healthy); i had been eating full meals + getting extra nutrition through a feeding tube the whole time, yet the bloating hadn't gotten any better.

after getting out of there, i kept eating and managed to gain slightly more weight; my body pretty much healed, except for the amenorrhea. and. the. fucking. gut. issues. i'd also want to note i have been struggling with nausea and stomach issues no medical professional has ever taken seriously since i was like 12 — ages before the disorder took place. so, fast forward to january 2026, following an intoxication caused by a gut antibiotic, all of my symptoms suddenly, almost completely, disappeared. i felt like a nightmare that had haunted me for years was finally over. well, until recently. about three weeks ago, i drastically increased the amount of food + fats i've been consuming, as im really, really determined to get my period back this year. i haven't had one since june 2023.

and, guess what! the bloating is back, and it's more extreme than it's ever been! i literally look pregnant; it hurts a lot and, needless to say, it's super uncomfortable. i've also started getting nauseous again pretty often. is there literally anything i can do?? is it all due to having increased my food intake? im so desperate and disheartened at the moment /:

hi everyone,

im looking for practical advice (and some encouragement as well maybe, haha).

first, here's some background info on my situation (trigger warning: i'll be mentioning body weight): im 20 and i havent had a period for almost 3 years now. i've been naturally underweight my entire life (my hw was ~49 kg), though i was perfectly healthy and had no issues at all. i believe this might be one of the reasons i've gotten my first period pretty late, at almost 15 years old. also, i think i should note that my period has always been extremely irregular and painful; however, when i went to get checked by a gyno, she said everything was totally fine and that i basically had to deal with it.

i've started restricting progressively more and more pretty much around that time, though not as heavily as i would've done a few months later, and i've immediately lost my period after a month or two.

fast forward a little less than a year later (on april 1st, 2024), i went to the er as i weighed ~32 kg by then and could barely walk at that point (besides having developed other serious issues). i had started eating normally about a week before i got hospitalized, but, clearly, the damage was too extreme for me to be able to handle it on my own.

i got out in july 2024; yet still weighed ~42 kg, even tho the whole time i had been eating normally (while also having been put on a feeding tube).

i've never been really hungry since then, but i kept having full, balanced meals regularly, as i knew i had to eat. at some point, i almost got to 45 kg, which was just a kilo less than the weight i was at when i'd gotten my first period. so, i was hopeful.

i dont weight myself regularly (almost never, actually), but i did just a few days ago and found out i've dropped a couple of kilos again. i've even increased the amount of fats in my meals recently, yet it appears im not making any progress! i eat pretty much anything, except for dairy products — they make me sick, but i do have yogurt and ice cream quite often as i cant resist those, lol —; tho not much processed food, as i dont (and have never, really) even crave it. i think never craving any snacks or anything outside of the main meals i have, and not being able to feel any hunger, might be somewhat hindering my progress.

what else can i do? i dont wanna resort to hormonal therapy or whatever it's called; do i have any chance of getting my period back naturally? any advice is appreciated, really ):