Living celibate due to horrible bottom dysphoria
I’m a trans lesbian woman with bottom dysphoria so bad the thought of using it makes me want to vomit. Im not really compatible with anyone because of it so… I live celibate. It has cost me potential relationships, has made sexual desire a living nightmare, and has rendered me loveless through my entire teens and twenties. I’m not asexual, I do have desire, but my life has become very restrained and dulled. I’m very happy to have transitioned and feel more connected with my body than I ever did before.
My options look pretty grim. The process to achieve the genitalia I desire is a long, expensive, and possibly dangerous path. I very well may be looking at a lifetime without sexual activity ever.
What tactics should I use? What knowledge should I impart? If I am to walk the path of being true to myself, I might be a virgin my whole life. Does anyone else have any experience like this? Having desire but literally no physical outlet for the desire to go? Most trans spaces aren’t a great help for this, so I decided to post here. I don’t need trans advice, I need celibacy advice.