u/seeking_the_t

Do I want to transition into an eternal anime twink? No

Can I imagine myself with facial hair similar to my dad's? Yes

Then why the fuck am I like this? I dropped T early several times already because I was scared of getting noticable changes and repped for a long time. I hrtrep now for a little while and try to get out of the repping habit, but still everytime I notice some new tiny hair on my poonstache I get obsessive over it and want to pluck everything out and rep harder. It may be some unknown trauma induced behavior, but either way I struggle with this very much and feel very faketrans. I am so tired of myself. Finasteride is not an option because I still wanna all the other effects.