i want to give Na Hae Soo a hug {ch. 121 discussion}
she doesn't deserve to feel how her ex has made her feel. (obviously)...but, just....ouch.
it bothers me that all her worth/value is being put into whether she can give a man (who never even deserved her) a child. SHE is not doing that, Minchul and Ari are.
taeha has tried to help her find her own worth in just enjoying life, being who she is, with him. even as sneaky and manipulative as he kind of is for starting their relationship the way he has. and she has worked so hard to get past this. i mean, she even states, >!"you can have him".!<
but, you can see, like....she accepted, pretty much, that he was a cheating piece of shit to her. yknow? but you never think someone who supposedly at one point LOVED YOU, saying such a thing about you, your body, a situation where you almost had a child with this person. that is another level of betrayal and hurt, another whole pandora's box.
for her, it's still shocking to hear just HOW FAR his cruelty has reached, saying what he really thinks of her to Ari. not that Minchul wasn't getting far too used to saying these things to Na Hae Soo's face, but this comment about her >!"not being able to even have a baby"!<, is just....horrible. after how hard she has had to work, trying to endure Minchul until she couldn't anymore and he left with no care about her in the world.
our worth and value as fem people/people with the ability to give birth, should not ONLY be rooted in that ability to give life. so what that we can do that? if people want to, they'll have children. if they don't want to, they shouldn't have to. but diminishing people as human beings (and their inner worth), watering it down to whether they can give some unworthy fucking man a child......it's just so shit, dude. and it's another pain entirely when someone WANTS/wanted to have children, and something happened to prevent that.
i'm sure hearing this, will finally solidify for Na Hae Soo that maybe Minchul truly never loved her, especially if he can bear such hatred and blame for her over ESPECIALLY this. something as sensitive as this, that they both went through... yikes. she'll know he really never loved her, if Minchul can sum up Na Hae Soo's worth as a human being in a way like that.
we're rootin' for you, girly! and your man is coming back for you! hang in! 😭