It’s getting harder
I’m 2ish months PP. Our boy / girl twins were born at 34+6 and came home a week later, we were very lucky with short NICU stays. Our girl came home first so we had a taste of life with one, our boy came home a few days later and then there were two.
They just hit two months and the last couple weeks have been rough. Our boy is a “grunter,” that infant dyschezia or whatever. He grunts ALL THE TIME, and it drives us insane. It interrupts his sleep but it’s been manageable like we have a flow. Yesterday and today have been terrible, nothing chills him like usual. I don’t think it’s colic because he does settle for about a half hour at a time and it’s not like purple faced screaming but he’s just crying and we can’t figure out how to settle him.
We’ve tried all kinds of stuff and I’m not necessarily looking for advice on this just because we’re gonna get with peds and see but I just don’t know how people do this.
The crying is what gets me like it’s so overwhelming and I just want it to stop or just pause for more than a half hour. They were chill babies but I know that was the preemie potato phase and they’re becoming humans but it’s exhausting. Don’t forget that they love their pacifiers so much but cannot seem to keep them in.
It has me feeling not good enough, scared as shit for the future and missing our “old life” when it was just us and the dogs. I also wish there was just one of them, but I could never pick one ya know. I love them both so I feel awful saying that.
Scared is the word that describes what I’m feeling. If I’m overwhelmed now, how will I ever be good enough for even harder shit moving forward?