I’m sick of people devaluing my platonic relationships
Including the people i have those relationships with. No one treats a friend like it’s a special thing to have, i have no community. I can’t explain to people how lonely i feel because they don’t get it, i’m not allowed to keep people around. My best friend wants to leave the country to live with her girlfriend and i can’t say that i don’t want her to go. People talk about the future and i can tell that i don’t get to play a role in it. I’m not allowed to want closeness and affection and stability from people because my feelings aren’t the big special important ones, it’s JUST friendship. i hate when people say that. JUST friends, like it’s lesser, because it is to them. JUST a friend, ONLY a friend, I’m second at best to everyone and i never get to come first. I’m so miserable and i just want friends that i can keep and that will love me as their friend and not leave me behind for something better, and i feel so selfish for even wanting that.