Giving birth vaginally was the worst idea
I just gave birth to a 9lb boy about 24 hours ago and I just realized what that means for my body. I suffer from vaginismus and pelvic floor disorder and had a vaginal birth. Thank god I got the IUD because I think I would’ve died from the pain. My vagina tore in several places including on the inside which took an entire hour to stitch up! Intercourse with my husband has been very few (I can count on both hands how many time we’ve done it in the 10 years I’ve known him) and now I’m afraid I’m never going to be able to have intercourse ever again due to the physical trauma of birth. My son so far is the best thing I’ve ever done and I am so in love with him already but I’m scared for my first love, my husband, that I won’t be able to satisfy him to the fullest anymore. I’m gonna try PT for the third time in 5 years if I can’t deal with this on my own.
Thanks for reading my rant