The fear and desire of losing my "virginity"
Hi, I am new to the sub but already feel welcomed. I am a 23 year old virgin. The desire for sex is not something I felt presently or felt the need to act upon. It was simply a thought I washed over. Now at 23 all I have been desiring, down to my bodies ovulation, my view of men in my day to day life and my expectations of men that I find attractive, has driven me to desiring having sex with a man. I feel scared that in the moment i will realize that I made a mistake. I fear traumatizing my body.
There is a 25 year old man I met online that is eager to have sex. One part of me gets excited about the thought of it all happening, but a wash of fear comes over me when I think about the fact that I would be alone and vulnerable while something I have no idea of the feeling of is happening to me - penetrative sex - I feel incredibly torn, emotionally and physically.
Kindly advise on your experiences and guidance in this. I hope that I am not alone in this mindset
Thank you ladies🩷