Very Hurt
As Salam Alaikum Everyone,
Firstly, thank you for reading my post. I have been married since 4 years now. My husband has been very kind and supportive throughout the my marriage, but 2 years ago I found out that my husband watches nude women excessively on a secret device, I was very much hurt but he promised that he would never do it again. This year on 3rd April, I found a secret instagram account on which he would again watch women at least 1 hour per day and would save their posts, and I am pregnant and was hospitalized and I found this account only 2 days after being hospitalized, he again said sorry and promised that he wouldn’t do it again, 3 days ago I found out that he used a secret device to create another account on instagram on 15th April, by that time I hadn’t even forgiven him, I was still very hurt, and he would see how hurt I was yet he made another account and was secretly watching women while I was in my room on strict bed rest. I don’t understand what all this is about and I am soo soo hurt because he knew how hurt I was, everything that I was going through while being pregnant yet he made another account and was doing the same deed while apologizing and fooling me again. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if he even loves me or not because he keeps saying that he wouldn’t do it the next time, and what bothers me is that he isn’t interested in me, does not desire me, does not watch me, does not cherish me but watches the same body parts of other women, and then still claims that he loves me. I am so so so scared and so hurt.