i think i might be a lesbian.. but i have a bf
for context, i (20f) have always known ive liked women. i’ve just identified as queer for years because i didn’t think i really cared too much about gender when it came to dating.
anyways, my bf and i have been kind of on and off for about 3 years and we are long distance. i do love him a ton but recently ive found myself genuinely yearning for a wlw relationship and wishing my bf and i had never been anything more than good friends. i think i still kind of see him as a friend most times. i don’t exactly enjoy sex or even sexual banter with him. (sometimes i feel a little disgusted when he brings it up) and when i picture my future im either single or with a woman.. ive never been able to really picture myself being with a man forever. ive never really felt as deeply for men as i do women.
i feel like the right/obvious thing to do is to break up with him but i don’t really know how to go about explaining it to him or how to handle it afterwards. i would really hate to lose him as a friend and i don’t think he’d be very fond of the idea. i don’t want him to think i never really loved him or something.
im not sure what to do.