u/shintengo

I have 3 big clients, 10 little clients and hundreds of singleb purchases. I have not delivered as well as I have done in the past on some of my big clients this year and in the past month the three of them have all hinted that they might not continue with the relationship. One of which just straight ghosted me.

I have been worried about this and it's been extremely stressful however I just thought about it. And despite the fact that they are my biggest clients, I actually don't make that much money from them. I did. But they have so much discount it's not worth using my employees to do work for them. It's only worth it if I am the provider.

Thinking about it this way has sent a wave of relief over me. Because it takes less work off my shoulder. I also subconsciously have been neglecting them or being less helpful to them because I know the work is technically not profitable.

Mine was about 8 months before I left. I was nearing 31, I was still single. I had sex with an old friend from my hometown.

I went to the bishop to repent. I explained what happened. How it was just one night. I said I knew from the moment I was driving to meet her it was going to happen. I didn't pretend it was a thing that just happened out of the blue. I took full ownership and I was very honest with him. It resulted in a disciplinary.

You see the problem was this has happened before with the same girl and one other. You see we first had sex at 19, then 26, 28, 30. Other than the first time it was happening every two years. And each time I repented and went to the bishop.

My disciplinary meeting lasted two hours. I was asked every single question in the sun. They actually looked disappointed when I emphasized it didn't just happen. It was fully consciential. But the final question. After two hours of an intense emotional experience. The first counsellor turned to me and said. "OP have you ever considered you are a predator" I didn't clock it at the time but I remember the look the bishop gave to him.

Well I buried my face in my hand and I cried "I don't know!"

You see I was obviously targeting girls who had such low self esteem that they would have sex outside of marriage. So obviously a predator.

But for the next few hours I questioned if I was but then mulled over it, and realised I wasn't and fuck that guy for asking me that.