u/shywol2

I mean unsafe to the point of crying. I can’t believe all that i went through to be able to accept myself just for the community to be the way it is. Little me would be so disappointed. I can see why a lot of people don’t/won’t come out. Things felt better when i was closeted and lying to myself. A space that’s been made to include literally everyone and protect literally no one could never be a safe space.

If you’re a lesbian, anyone is allowed to force themselves onto you and you’re the one in the wrong for getting upset. It’s impossible to not be “bigoted” to a group of people that hates you for nothing other than your gender and your sexuality. Honestly, this is making want to kms.

I originally didn't want to post this out of concern of possibly bringing the mood down during SHINee's anniversary and possibly making other people think about something they didn't want to, but it's been almost 9 years since Jonghyun passed. It was also a little over 9 years from the time they debuted up until the time he passed.

It's crazy how fast time goes by. I don't want to think about SHINee existing longer without him than they did with him. I don't want to think about possibly getting to the point where there's more SHINee songs without his voice than with. There's so many new fans that don't know what it's like to see him in a teaser that just dropped or anticipate hearing his vocals on a new song. I don't want him to eventually just turn into "that kpop guy that died."

I apologize if this is too negative or seems out of place. Like I said, I wasn't really going to post this but I have no one to talk to about this. I know that he is, and will always be, a member of SHINee. It just feels so uncanny to think about all the time that has passed and how much will continue to pass.