u/sighted_blind

I am a prison

I trap smoke in my veins

veins suffocate the moments

I trap moments in my memories

memories in my heart

Heart aches with pain

and I trap pain in myself

Wait, she can hear now

Suddenly the voices became louder

Louder than the love she imagined

Louder than the grief she accepted

Heartbeats, like the massacre gun

Bang, bang, bang

Hears the piercing voices of the unknowns

Murmuring, muttering

She closes her ears with her hands

Peace flows for a bit

But wait, there are holes in her hands

Red wine surging through them

"Who are you?" she whispers

Voices reply with a roar

A roar so loud that she couldn't hear

She begs for silence

Unversed in ruthlessness

She cries, she cries.

On the rooftop, she cries.

Wait, she cannot hear now

Suddenly the silence became quieter

Quieter than the love she imagined

Quieter than the grief she accepted

Heartbeats, like a gentle drum

Thump thump thump

Deafened, and defeated by the voices?

No, she learned to close her ears

Roars that made her cry,

the pebbles in the vast ocean

Now, she doesn't beg for silence

Versed in ruthlessness

She cries, she cries

On the rooftop she cries

I am tired of convincing the universe

That I am not worthy of loving you

You are the beautiful sky

I am just an insect trying to fly towards you

You are the deepest ocean

I am just a leaf that can't drown deep

You are a fruitful season

I am just a fragranceless wind

You are infinite

I am just a limit

But

But the way you look at me

It makes be believe

You are worth every pain I will bear

You are worth every heartbreak I will have to live with

So

So I will always be there

Even if I am just an ambitious insect,

just a floating leaf, just an odourless wind,

Or just a limit looking towards the infinite

I will be there admiring every little thing that I can grasp of you.