u/siuoxis

i really feel like it’s most annoying
to think that you have to EAT when you are nauseous is the worst 🥲

Hey, Leute, ich hätte eine Frage zur Deutschlandstipendium. Ich habe mich dieses Semester beworben, bin bei der Sozialwissenschaftlichen Fakultät.

Auf der Website steht, dass die Rückmeldungen voraussichtlich ab dem 11. Mai rausgeschickt werden.

Hat jemand schon eine Zu-/Absage bekommen oder noch nicht?
Ich bin zu ungeduldig...

i am in therapy now and i we have a list of things that i am going to do (gradually) in our sessions
but when i think of that, i am so scared.
it seems to me that if i just make myself throw up a couple of times it wont be that bad, as situations that i wrote down for myself
i know that i try to bargain but when i think of the things that i have to do and when i talked about them to my family, everyone found it very unpleasant
so why would i do that.. maybe i should really just make myself throw up every day for a month or so, in different scenarios and it will be better
because i would rather do that calmly in my bathroom that eat myself full and turn around till i am dizzy and nauseous 😭
maybe i am not even that emetophobic and actually a healthy person (no)
so should i stick with the routine that me and my therapist created or just do it the quick and hard way

fear of eating is a big part of my emetophobia. i am very scared of feeling full because it reminds me of nausea. i am also scared to throw up food more because it has never happened to me before and i can’t even imagine what it feels like.

it is problematic because i am limiting my food intake very much and now i am underweight.

but i don’t understand how can i overcome it. when i am hungry i am not scared of anything, however when i eat, it ist 100000x worse

have any of you struggled with this? and how do you deal with it?

i like food but i don’t enjoy eating at all. it is not worth the fear