u/slyzard94

My parents have always believed mental illness is a choice and what not. So when I got diagnosed on my own 10 years ago they didn't care and I didn't care to explain to them cuz I was out of the house.

Now in the present day I've recently had to move back home. It's been 10 years since I lived with my parents, they still think mental illness is just something lazy people claim. A little while ago I got stuck in an ocd loop (cant afford meds or therapy at the moment) and my mom witnessed it.

She claims its my hormones. Lol. (Ive also had panic attacks since I was 8 but wasn't able to get help until I became an adult.) And while explaining that she thinks I have a hormonal disorder (specifically pmdd) she told me that she has been tracking my period without my knowledge. So if im ever upset she just blames it on my period cycle no matter what point of my cycle im in.

I asked her to stop. She said No. I started changing my tampons in my room with my own private trash can and sneaking them to the dumpster once a month. It felt so gross but at least I had privacy. Now Ive found out she's COUNTING THE FUCKING TAMPONS IN THE BOX.

Idk what to do. Life is too expensive to live alone rn I wanna rip my hair out. This feels like some insane gaslighting and like some weird perverted obsession with my period. I dont know what to do with my rage rn (: