Done with uni, hyper focussed for 12 hours
This is more of a vent about medication, so I didn’t know which category to put it under, sorry if it’s wrong!
So I’ve been titrating for around 3 weeks now (currently at 70mg Elvanse- spoiler alert it’s probably too high) and for that whole period I’ve had tons of uni work (final year dissertation). It’s been great at keeping me focussed. I finished everything on Tuesday.
Now I have nothing that’s actually important to do. I have no direction to channel the meds towards. And I definitely saw the consequence of that yesterday.
I spent my ENTIRE day. From 4pm until 4am. Hyper focused on learning how to make those cool edits on TikTok. 12 HOURS. It felt like 30 minutes!!!! I didn’t even eat!! I checked the time at 7pm, ate a bowl of cereal, and went back to it. Came back to reality at 4am.
Very concerning. Although I had no obligations, and it was my first day without a pressing deadline, so maybe I was just indulging in the fact I now can spend 12 hours doing bullshit? But it scared me a little how fast the time passed for me. I didn’t even go to the bathroom until my boyfriend got home from work and snapped me out of it.
So yeah. Think my dose is too high lol. And I have to find a way to not get sucked into stuff when I have nothing important to do.
TLDR: had nothing important to do for the first time in a month, spent 12 hours locked into learning how to edit.