Please explain to me what happened with my addict lover.
Lifelong addict. Hard drugs, has ODed in the past. Been to rehab. Multiple relapses.
I'll try to give a rough timeline of the events.
Was "clean" when we met. From the heavy stuff, that is. Leaned heavily on alcohol. Gradually started smoking weed again as well.
Romance happens, genuine connection happens, all that stuff.
In the span of like four months, this man goes from "drugs were bad for me", and "I'm trying to stop drinking beer as well" (didn't drink for three days) to "cocaine was so nice", "I wish I could find some pills here", and "can you help me find meth, please please pleaseee".
Other quotes of his include "Do you think we can find oxycodone in your city?", "I am only going to do meth once or twice a week", "I just need a little boost", "I won't do it every day, I swear", and "I understand the cycle now, I can control it".
At the same time, his personality started changing, and he seems way more self-centered, generally less caring, less romantically involved, and just colder.
The last installment in this series of events is that I overwhelmed him emotionally, after sensing the switch, and now he has pushed me away and is seemingly self-isolating. At least from me.
He hasn't actually relapsed on the hard stuff yet, but purely because he has no access to the drugs at the moment.
Apparently, the last time he did meth was 5/6 months ago. In the gap between then and now he's also had codeine and one random pill if Xanax.
The fuck is happening? How do these addiction curves and cycles work? What's the mechanism behind his personality shifting? Give me at least some wisdom, I'm begging.