having an abortion and im not okay
For context im 18f and i had been with my boyfriend for a long time, i do see myself having a family in the future with him but not right now
i have always been pro choice and ill always be
ill never judge a woman for choosing herself but i never imagined how hard this is
i feel so empty and depressed my abortion is scheduled for tomorrow and i cant stop crying
i just think how beautiful my baby would be and how evil i am for not being able to provide it the life it deserves
this is the worst i ever felt im grateful i have my mans support but he would never understand this feeling
its literally growing inside me and eating everything i do and i just have to let it go?
idk how i will ever get over it but its just not the right time for a baby and i know the baby wouldnt be happy with the life i could give it rn
i just started college and neither my boyfriend nor i have ever been employed and we dont have anyones support
im so sorry baby
mommy is really sorry and ill never forget you i think ill regret this for a lifetime i just hope you will understand and forgive me