u/snubbullul

hi everyone i hope you're doing well. sorry if this comes off as validation begging, i'm just feeling anxious tonight and don't wanna bother my friends anymore over the same obsessive thoughts that can't really be fixed.

i'm gonna see a psych soon for a diagnosis and i've had tics for 5+ years now but i'm only just seeing a psych because my tics have only just gotten to a point of exacerbation where i can't live anymore without some clarity and medical support.

i'm scared they're gonna wonder why i took so long. why i suddenly have awful tics when they were manageable for years before. they're gonna think i'm lying about having them for so long, or that i'm not to be taken seriously because they only just started being severe tics this summer. i need a diagnosis so bad because i need support and if my tics remain this way i want to see about medication or something. if they refuse to take me seriously it's over.

i developed coprolalia tics recently. they're extremely frequent for me now. is there anything i can do? has anyone successfully "phased out" their socially inappropriate tics for other ones? i hate swearing and saying mean things to people even if i can't control it. it makes me feel miserable about myself. i don't think swearing is wrong but i personally don't do it if i can help it because it doesn't make me feel good and now i'm doing it 24/7 because i *don't want to* do it so of course it happens more.

we're experiencing a heatwave in the uk at the moment and i'm just absolutely exhausted. my tics are extremely exacerbated by heat because it makes me uncomfortable and i can't do anything. i can't sleep, can't eat, can't be around people because i'm too embarrassed to let myself tic in front of them and when i hold them in it gets worse, so i just self-isolate instead. breathing exercises don't work, doing things i like doesn't work because i'm too exhausted to do anything engaging. i'm so loud and embarrassed and i want it to be over. and this is going to be the coolest summer for the rest of the existence of earth. it's only going to get worse overtime plus it's only june right now. i have so many things to do this week involving going out and seeing people and i don't know if i can suppress anymore. i wanna go to bed