my mom got diagnosed with IIIB but her behaviour frustrates me
hello, i'm f21 currently living in other city because of college and cant go home because the family is financially struggling. my mom lives with my older sister (f23) together right now. the doctor told us earlier this year that her cancer seems to be asleep now? idrk what that means but now my mom is in constant pain on her stomach to the point she can only lay on her bed holding her stomach and groaning due to the sickness. she doesnt have any appetite to eat and keep feeling nausea like she wants to puke her meals.
we r supposed to know what the sickness she's be having rn whether its the cancer getting worse or the side effect of it after the mri test got revealed but mom is on national insurance which is relatively cheap so it took so long for the result to came out and the country directs all chronic illness to one same hospital (its indonesia so its expected) it frustrate me.
the thing about her behavior that frustrate me is that she doesnt want to stop smoking. like about a pack a day. she keeps looking for alternative cures that doesnt do anything and today just said she wanted to get iv nutrition from the hospital eventho u cant just ask for it here esp as national insurance patient. even after the doctor told her to force herself to eat, she wont do that. sometimes she eats the food doctor told her to avoid. im so tired with my mom because she keeps saying we (me and my sisters) want her dead. my sister work late night and cant always take care of her. i feel hopeless