My sister praying for my death
I'm 24ys. After graduation from university, I find it hard to figure out my next move. Dealing with my depression and sucsidal thoughts, killing me every day. I find it hard to get out of bed, brush my teeth, eat, or sleep. Everything around me is a miss. Everyone is moving forward while I'm stuck on the same cycle. I hate myself so much.
Every time my sister sees me eating or playing games just to forget, she whisper prays for me to end up like my cousin who falls to drugs and an unstable life, and for me to die. I started to wear my headphones more so I didn't listen to her so she got bolder and prayed in front of my face, she was hoping I heard her. I do hear her but pretent not to...
Last night, I attempted to end everything, I was hoping I was gone. No more pain, but I survived.
I dont know what I will do anymore. No one even noticed my absence. I dont know how to deal with my sister, or myself....