u/sophisticateddinonug

I feel like I'm not in the worst position with my GP. Eating mainly causes pain and constipation but not throwing up and I'm only throwing up once a month. Atm I'm in what I think is a flare, I'm throwing up a lot this week but I've also been moving so the physical stress + the mental stress isn't amazing. I've noticed when I'm doing a lot physically it gets worse and I'm throwing up more and doing way worse. I've been scared of getting a job since my last one and since i found out I have GP in August. I'm scared I'm not sick enough for disability but I'm really really scared that if I start working again it might make everything worse. When I'm playing games and chilling out it feels way better and I can eat whatever but when I'm doing things physically I can't even hold down juice. Idk what to do, I can't depend on anyone for the rest of my life but I'm too fatigued qnd have tol much brain fog to feel like i can do remote and too much of a physical issue to do what I'm actually skilled at, LABORRR! It feels like I'm stuck between both worlds of being chronically ill and being okish? What if I can never figure anything out?