i want to leave boyfriend but i don’t know how
i am a 19yr old female wanting to leave my 21 yr old boyfriend. we have been together since we were 15 & 17. we just got a new house that we’re renting, and we both make 2k a month full time. he has hurt me so many times, and he thinks apologizing for it just gets rid of all the hurt. but i’m so tired of words without change, and i can’t do it anymore. i pay rent and he pays utilities and groceries which totals up to $700, while i pay 1,145. i pay the rent early every month. he is exactly the same person he was 5 years ago. which is a problem because we are adults now. i want someone who is more mature and fits my lifestyle now, and he just isn’t it. it is a 3B 2BA house. he wouldn’t agree to just being roommates, he has anger issues and is very impulsive when he gets angry. if i broke up with him, he would move back home 100%. so i need to find a way to make this work without him. or atleast find a way to talk to him about this without him exploding. he’s my bestfriend. but that’s all he really feels like. just a friend i share a bed with. we aren’t intimate. my body and mind is just checked out of this relationship. he’s a good guy but a terrible partner. and i just want time to figure out who i am as a person since i’ve been with him since i was a teen. i’m not the same person i used to be, but he keeps trying to shove me in a box and assume that i am. that’s why we can’t move forward. please over some suggestions.
it’s a one year lease, and my parents aren’t an option because they both don’t have space or are homeless.