Vent, looking for emotional support.
18, butch, PIMO. really looking for support.
I'm at the point where I feel like I've failed myself and my future.
I'm alone in my experience, and the non JW online connections I've made have honestly made my life nothing but harder. Everyone else I know is struggling just as much, and I don't know how to ask for help. Most people rely on me for emotional support, when I have no means of emotional or physical support myself.
I've been in an online relationship for a few years, and that has been equally as taxxing and suffocating.
All of my immediate and extended family are JW's. I have no non JW connections in real life that could support me.
I feel more trapped because of the fact that I am mentally disabled as well. I have ADHD and MDD, and I have been homeschooled since highschool. I have not graduated because of my ADHD, to which I've only recently gotten medicated for. My homeschool program is also run by Jehovahs witnesses.
I just don't know what to do. I'm in therapy and putting much effort into trying to benefit from it, but it really doesn't help. I'm lost and alone and people don't understand.
I've never had someone to guide me or look to for genuine support, or just a friend I can be truly vulnerable with. I need help. It gets harder everyday.
I'm trying so hard but I'm losing myself, and the pressure everyday is so much worse now that I'm 18 and I need to figure out how to support myself. I'm unbaptized and time is growing short.
I just need someone to talk to. I need someone to care about me, I need some form of hope. Asking for help here is desperately the last thing I know how to do.