Scared to coparent.
Hi yall! Recently just ended my very bad abusive and toxic relationship about 3 weeks ago. I held on for SO long, through his lies and cheating and addiction. He got clean, we had our baby, but I was still so hurt from the past so we were never happy. He left us. I was devastated. Now he wants us back but now I’m not sure. I’m so scared to co parent. I have 3 kids from a previous relationship but their father is not in the picture so I’ve never had to “share” my babies. Now I am expected to share my 4th, she’s 1. All the what ifs are making me almost just say ok come home to him. But the thought of a happy relationship and not stepping on egg shells makes me so happy. Please tell me it gets better? How do I forget about this family I thought I was going to finally have? How do I break the trauma bond and be okay with co parenting? I don’t trust him with our daughter but I know I’m going to have to get over that. I just don’t even know where to start.