u/spilt_lattes

I've always struggled with eating a "normal" meal and feeling like I already messed up so I should binge and start again tomorrow. For example, I went to lunch with my friend, I don't see her often, and didn't want her to question why I wasn't eating or make her feel bad. Plus, I just wanted a normal moment and not think about anything else besides spending time with my friend. However, after lunch, I kept thinking I should just binge and eat whatever I want because I "messed up" during lunch. I absolutely hate it. I have those moments all the time. I eat something I think is bad and it's like "well you already ate that bad thing so just keep eating bad things" it's exhausting and a mental war. Not sure if anyone else relates.