u/star-succubus

For context, my PTSD started at the beginning of the year when I witnessed my mom get murdered by her husband who she was in the process of divorcing. I fought him off but she had already sustained fatal injuries. We lived in the middle of nowhere so I did CPR for roughly 13 minutes while I waited for emergency services to arrive.

I want to find an online group where I can talk more about my experiences because a lot of my thoughts and feelings are very dark and feel inappropriate to share in my friend group. Plus I'd like to speak to others who have had similar experiences who can validate me and give advice.

Unfortunately when searching, most of the keywords I used to search brought up groups/servers that were for people who are interested in true crime, which is not what I am looking for at all. I appreciate this group a lot too but I am interested in finding something more specific, since it seems like a lot of people on this sub have PTSD based on sexual crimes. Of course I respect their experiences but it is not something I can relate to as much.

(Also not to imply that sexual crimes isn't violent, but the support we have been given so far called it violent crimes, meaning murder or serious bodily harm, and I am not sure what other language to use)

This probably sounds like an odd question because most people who get phallo tend to get it for the reason that it can achieve much greater size than meta.

I am just recovering from stage 2 of meta, and I always knew that if I wasn't satisfied with it I may consider phallo.

I really like having a small dick but I don't like how meta still looks/reminds me of my female anatomy. I like the girth and aesthetic of phallo, especially with medical tattooing.

I was just curious what is the smallest you've seen someone go and theoretically what would be possible.

If possible it'd be nice to not increase my length by much but achieve the girth and appearance of a cis micropenis.

When I brought this up in another group the main concern with going smaller was that erectile devices don't go that small. For me this is not an issue because I dont care about penetration and more about the aesthetics.

Edit: other preference that I wanted to add is that I'd like to have enough length to stp through pants.