Arfid Strikes Again
With my daily life ARFID has been a consistent problem since childhood. Although i continue to have extreme aversion, and what seems like at times a phobia of foods my friends and family are fairly understanding. It makes me feel silly at times because of how deep my fear and discomfort of food goes, sometimes leaving me in tears just being around foods, not even attempting to try them. In recent years i would say i have made some progress but it feels like this is all about to negatively change.
I recently got into a competitive university that i had been working towards for the past two years. The unfortunate thing is that the accommodation i was allocated is catered, meaning i lack the means to prepare my own food, and have to rely on the university to provide me it. I have been crying all day over this as i physically cannot force myself to eat most of the food they provide, and with the money id be paying it would just be a waste. Not to mention the fact that id just end up starving. I feel utterly defeated, knowing that as ARFID has taken away more experiences in my life. I previously never sought out a diagnosis due to being able to grow to manage my condition in my private life, and the lack of help i could actually receive. Im just so lost and honestly feel ridiculous for letting ARFID dictate my life once more.