u/stimulants_and_yoga

Outside sales rep, been at my company for like a decade. Make about $200k. Requires road travel, but home office and I make my own schedule.

The issue is my new boss causes me so much anxiety by micromanaging. We have a long sales cycle, so with my old boss, it was like slow and steady.

Now my new boss is all about activity reports and has brought up 4x that I don’t travel enough. Even though, I’ve been successful at this job for many years.

I can’t control my Sunday scaries or anxiety about him having malicious motives with me because he’s blindsided me before with expectations that have never been on the table before.

I just feel like I need to ride out this job until I get fired, but I’m so anxious.

I swear my mental health is constantly affected by my irrational fear of being fired. I have a newer boss and he’s super motivated. I feel like he already thinks I’m not doing enough so he’s constantly asking “how he can help” but it just feels like micromanaging. Mind you, I’ve been at this job for a decade.

I feel like the shoe is going to drop any day. Unfortunately, I make too much money and the flexibility and products are good, so I genuinely feel like I can’t even leave because I know every other job is going to be shittier work for less pay.

This is the first time she’s ever said something that hurt my feelings.

Despite me going to EVERY school event, she still wants to be a SAHM.

Then she basically said that she wouldn’t put her kid in daycare.

😭😭😭

I didn’t respond, but it felt like a punch in the gut.

I don’t need advice, just needed to put it out there.

I’m so burnt out. I have two small kids. I just can’t keep up with the ever increasing quota and travel requirements. My husband has a demanding job, and it’s just so hard when all my male colleagues have a stay at home wife.

I would make 1/3 of what I do now, but I wonder if I would be happier, then I could have summers off.

Or do I just suck it up for a couple more years then “retire” early? (ie- get a bullshit job later)

I’m in outside sales rep and I’m not doing great. I’m being told I don’t do enough travel. I don’t sell enough. I’m not spending enough time at my accounts (instead I’m working from my home office).

When I told my boss previously that I don’t have family support and it’s just me and my husband, and that it’s super hard doing everything (work, pickups, dinner, household, etc). He basically confronted me and said I am not working hard enough and tried to get me to agree. (I didnt agree, instead I told him that I had hit quota for over 5 years in a row and said I felt targeted).

He backed off, but he has a stay at home wife. There’s only about 10% of women on my team. It’s so male dominated and high-earning. Most the wives barely work.

I just want to cry. I feel like I am completely disenfranchised and I can’t actually have it all. The expectations of this job have been increasing year over year and it just doesn’t seem possible long-term especially with my husbands job.