Exposed during ECG
I don’t quite know whether or not this is the sub for this post, but I saw that you guys deal with sexual and medical related trauma here so I thought this was best and I’m desperate for someone else to tell me what this was. I don’t have anyone else to share this with if I’m overreacting.
I have to get ECGS done yearly as part of my health routine, so I’ve had many in my life and I know how they go and what to expect during them. I had my yearly this week and it went very differently and I can’t shake the gross feeling I have from it.
Usually, someone else comes in with me. I decided this time it would be fine to go in alone. The nurse asked what I wanted to do, gown, different shirt, or my regular clothes and I just panicked and said gown. She said to take my top and bra off and put the opening in the front. Okay. I did tie together the knots on the gown. I know they’ll usually just go under the gown to place the stickers. She did not do that. She undid the knots without asking or telling me what she was going to do and exposed my chest entirely for too long as she also touched my breast multiple times (which was NOT in the way of the sticker placements) to set it up. I don’t know if I’m just being sensitive from past experiences but I was basically frozen when she was doing this and couldn’t bring myself to say anything. I can just feel a phantom touch on my body since then and just a general grossness. I can’t tell anyone and have it be reported if it’s just nothing. But it’s never felt like that before.
I’ve been reading up and I know sometimes they need to move breast tissue with the back of their hand but NO ONE has ever done this to me before and like I said, usually I have someone accompanying me into the room. What was this? Am I overreacting? Why do I feel so bad about this? Am I just being triggered from past assault, and nothing malicious happened?