For anyone who understands.
I aged out of foster care in 2015 as a Ward of the State. Was a foster youth from 13 to 18, the last few years I spent in a halfway house because I couldn't find placement or any willing adoptive options.
Since then it's been a rollercoaster, I went to college for a few years then I happened upon a pregnancy. At my own discretion I chose to keep my baby, even though my partner at the time has never been involved and will probably never acknowledge her existence. This was my choice, I stand by it. I wanted something different for her, a family, a community... Something I never got to experience much if at all.
Fast-forward to 2026, I am married, mother of 3 and bonus mom to one, we live in a beautiful house in a great neighborhood.. But I am so extremely lonely. My husband doesn't understand me. Seems like not many people do so I cannot blame him much. From everything I've been through I've developed C-PTSD, I'm medicated. Doing experimental treatments of TMS and just trying to deal and overcome it all. I know it's never going to completely leave me. It helps to have someone who understands things at the level that they've happened.
I have no family, no cousins or aunts etc... I had two best friends from when I was in foster care but they have both since passed away. Naturally I have a hard time keeping long term friendships afloat. Doesn't much help that I am a stay at home mom now in a city and state that I am not from.
I don't really know why I'm writing here. I guess I'm just extending a hand to anyone who will reach out, grab it and say I understand. It gets better. It WILL get better. I don't know, here's to hope and good things.