Struggling
I haven’t had a flare up in a while and have been off of my meds for at least a year. However, I started having a flare up last night and have been in intense pain ever since. I got and took famotidine (omeprazole and pantoprazol don’t work for me for whatever reason) and am still in agony hours later. I got up to try and cook dinner and can’t even stand up straight because buckling makes the pain less severe. I’m so frustrated by being in such severe pain that I cried. I’ve had bananas, I’ve taken Tums, and nothing. My stomach is also now growling which I’m sure will make the issue worse, not better, but swallowing water hurts when it hits right around the bottom of my sternum so how am I gonna get food down?
I’m exhausted. I have a performance this weekend I cannot be in this state for. I got sent home from work today and can’t call out tomorrow because I’ll run out of PTO. I don’t know what to do but I’m just in so much pain and I know there’s nothing anyone will do for me.
I think I just needed to scream into a void full of people who get it. Thanks for reading if you got this far. Just. I’m exhausted.