17f leaving soon
I live with my mom, im not getting abused or anything its actually the exact opposite. My mom has done so much for me especially as of recently. She constantly has to put up with my poor mental health and she doesn't like to say it but i know im a stressor for her. Even with her own baggage she manages to get me support and tries her best to push me to be better. But in return all i ever do is push back, she wastes so many resources on me and i use her money for weed. I thank her and i tell her i love her but i havent actually done anything for her in years not for her birthday, mother's day, christmas nothing and its like i plan to sometimes but i never follow through and she hasnt even complained. I don't have a job, i dont clean up around the house even though shes disabled, im failing my art classes for no fucking reason and its ART, shes wanted to move to Georgia for YEARS but shes staying for my 1st year of college because if my deteriorating mental health. There are so many examples of me being a horrible daughter, so im running away. Then she wont have to waste stuff on me, then she could finally live her life.
I know the dangers, even with them ive convinced myself to leave so dont try telling me to stay, i just need some advise. I live in NJ, extremely close to nyc its like an hr bus ride. I also dont know much about the laws surrounding run aways in the tristate area especially those about to be legally an adult. I don't plan on taking anything from home since everything that's "mine" my mom bought. Id like to find a way to make money fast since id need an inhaler n those r usually behind a security measure. I plan to leave around mid june. Any guidance helps‼️😋