Guilt after having sex with possible prodrome/incomplete healing
So, I (m41) was diagnosed with ghsv1 about 2 weeks ago, after having a few small sores I thought were ingrown hairs for a few days. I'd probably had the sores for a week by the time I got the diagnosis. I got on valtrex the next day, so I've been on meds for 2 weeks and the sores have all disappeared. I've had some itching symptoms but honestly I kind of always have itching symptoms because I am pretty hairy.
I'm bi, and have had a few fwbs, one of whom reached out to me out of the booh yesterday and asked if I wanted to hook up. I pretty much immediately disclosed my diagnosis, but said that I was on meds, and we could use a condom, and it would make transmission. Unlikely. He was in right away using a condom. I had receptive anal sex with him, using akana the whole time, but he is pretty big and I'm somewhat worried that it didn't cover all the way up to the shaft the whole time. This was yesterday, and I've had some more itching and there's even one bump more around my butts and some general redness in the area.
I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and worry that my initial outbreak wasn't completely gone, as the symptoms are and have been mild the whole time, and I've been able to kind of ignore them and go about my day for the most part. Either that or it's possible that I'm in prodrome for another outbreak. I feel stupid and gross. I feel like I wanted to be wanted in that moment. I disclosed and we used a condom but I don't think he is super up on sexual health and I'm feeling like I didn't think adequately about the risks. Please help, and know um already spiralling so yelling at me is not helpful.