u/subuso

One thing that really gets to me about being BIPOC is how you're hyper-visible wherever you go to but everyone else makes you feel invisible. It's something that's so hard to describe to someone who's never experienced it.

I walk around the streets in the very white city I currently live in, feeling like no one is seeing me or even acknowledging my existance. However, if something were to happen to someone else (like someone getting robbed or whatever), I know for a fact I would be the first person to be looked at or interrogated by the police

I've tried explaining this to other BIPOC, and was gaslit beyond imagination, so for the longest time I really did believe it was all in my head, but today I know it's true because I've spoken to BIPOC who've also lived in majority white spaces. I absolutely hate this because I know that if I were ever in a situation in which I needed someone's help, people would just pass me by and pretend not to see me because I am probably dangerous

I really don't know how much longer I'll be able to handle all of this

I am honestly baffled that gay white men can surprisingly find a way to treat me far worse than the straights. And this isn't me saying that the white straights are nice to me, it's just that the white gays are far worse.

Event though I am gay myself, I absolutely avoid them like the plague. I really can't deal with the amount of hate they have towards everyone who doesn't fit their narrow perception of the world, which is basically everyone.

The worst part to me is how they absolutely hate it when we don't suffer the way they expect us to. I live in a very white city, so making gay friends is completely out of the equation. I usually go out with straight guys, who for whatever reason feel comfortable around me. I'm unfortunately always the only Black person and only queer person as well in those groups. Occasionally, we do go places where others are also queer.

My straight male friends are quite comfortable with themselves and enjoy fake flirting with me, to the extent of even touching and cuddling with me. I've noticed that this absolutely bothers the white gays, the same gays who don't even give me the time of day and act like I don't exist. I guess I only exist when I get attention from the men they desire.

This absolutely pisses me off because I don't even want that kind of attention from straight men, specially white men, but I take it because it's the only kind of attention I get. It's really like I am just supposed to die

What are your takes about the white gays?