u/sunshinedaydreams26

My social anxiety is so bad after seeing some people I know yesterday. I am over analyzing every moment, every single thing I said, and just ruminating about all the things I said or did wrong. it’s making me cringe so much. I feel like everyone hates me or thinks i’m annoying, negative, weird, pathetic, dumb, etc etc. I talk to my friends closest to me about it and they tell me none of that is true about me that they love me as I am. I don’t feel this way around everyone but when I do it can really throw me through a loop. i’ve been in a deep depression ever since I got home yesterday afternoon. my partner was worried about me when he came in and I was just laying there in the dark crying. this can’t be normal. i’m a mental health professional myself. i’ve sought therapy recently and had such a horrible experience I feel defeated. I feel like no one understands this struggle. My mom my whole life has always told me not to care what others think of you. that the people closest to you are who’s opinions matter and those people love me. why is that not enough? it’s like I need everyone to like me or something which is unrealistic. I just need to vent to possibly someone out there who will understand.