u/sweetmilkcloud

I will be completing my last chemo infusion in a little over a week from today. I feel like I have been in survival mode since diagnosis, measuring every day by the countdown until I’m done with treatment. I was diagnosed at 22 basically as soon as I graduated from college.

As I’m nearing the end of treatment, I find myself starting to grapple with the immense grief of what has happened to me. I was living a very happy life at my college when I was diagnosed — perfect little beachside college town with a set daily routine and all my friends living down the street from me. I was supposed to stay in said college town for a gap year after graduation, but this was ripped away from me when I was diagnosed and had to move back home with my parents.

I am planning to apply to graduate school this winter, so I will be able to return to academia eventually, but the present feels like a gaping maw of what lies ahead. I secured a summer job that will keep me busy, but I am frantic thinking about how I will spend the hours I’m not working. For lack of a better word, it feels like everything sucks now and I will never be as happy as I once was in college.

This feeling is definitely being intensified because I went from having my own place in college to being stuck in my parents’ tiny house. Luckily, I am going to be moving into their ADU in the next couple weeks, so I will (sort of) have my own space again.

I just feel so lost. I know this is normal after dealing with cancer, but it is so hard. I am in therapy and take medication for anxiety/depression, but I am so worried I will never be happy with my new life because I will always be comparing it to what once was.

In exactly 2-weeks from today I will be completing my last chemotherapy treatment ever at 23 years old. I haven’t been allowed by my doctor to smoke over the entire 6-month course of treatment, so I am VERY excited! I think I’m gonna get so high that I get scared after this extended t-break.

I’m planning to use my beloved bong, of course, and get myself a fancy live resin cart, but I want to do something extra special to celebrate. I’m considering splurging on a flower vaporizer, particularly since they’re so much better for your lungs.

Does anyone have any suggestions? I would especially appreciate brand recommendations since I only really know about PuffCo and those rigs are very pricey.

Thanks! I will definitely be posting when I take my first toke 2 weeks from now, so keep an eye out 😌

Hi all, I wanted to ask if anyone has any recommendations for OTC sleep aids that have been helpful for you. I am on daily steroids to help with my low blood pressure, which has unfortunately made me an insomniac. Quality sleep is so important to me and I am really struggling without it. Thank you!

I only have 2 weeks and 3 days remaining in my treatment timeline. Does anyone else think it’s SO much harder to be so close to finishing rather than just starting or halfway through? Literally only 17 sleeps between me and never doing chemo again. I just wanna smoke a joint in my backyard 🥹 sigh.

I’m undergoing chemotherapy and have had to quit smoking for treatment, so edibles are my only source of relief. A few months ago I discovered a brand of nano-infused drinks that miraculously work for me after gummies/tinctures/suppositories all failed. My routine is taking one 100 mg drink every other day with a day off to keep my tolerance down.

Evidently, this isn’t working much. I just finished a 2-week t-break on Monday, and I celebrated by taking the drink. I was actually able to get really high. Unfortunately, upon taking the same 100 mg drink on Wednesday, I noticed significantly diminished effects.

Does anyone else have this problem? It feels like it’s literally just me. I would understand this tolerance level if I was smoking all day and taking the drink multiple times every day, but I am so minimal with my usage and I don’t smoke at all. I feel incredibly frustrated that I am losing the one source of relief that I can get during cancer treatment because of my body’s strange metabolism.

I just finished a 2-week tolerance break on Monday. I’m a cancer patient and have had to rely on THC drinks during treatment because I’m not allowed to smoke or inhale anything while on chemo.

I took a 100 mg drink on Monday when my break ended and got sky-high. Best high I’ve had in years. I took another 100 mg drink on Wednesday (yesterday) and it felt significantly less intense — it was a very mild high and didn’t last nearly as long.

I’m worried that I screwed up by jumping to such a high dosage when my break ended and that I should have started lower. At this point, I can’t really do another 2-week break because my treatment will basically be over by then so it’s not really worth it.

I just want to be able to actually get high. I’m wondering if I should do a week break to reset, but I literally just finished my 2-week break. Feeling frustrated and lost :(

I’m very excited! I’m undergoing cancer treatment and have been on a 2-week tolerance break that I’m gonna end tonight by taking a 50 mg edible drink. I’ll see y’all in space 🪐

My 5-year high school reunion is coming up next weekend and I’m really excited to see everyone but also so nervous and scared. I felt like I had a massive glow-up after high school, but now I’m bald without my long eyelashes and nice eyebrows. I know I will still look good and I’ll do my makeup and wear my nice human hair wig, but I am dreading having the cancer conversation with so many people.

I always talk about it lightheartedly because I only have 1 cycle left of treatment anyway, but cancer makes people so triggered. It’s like you just told them THEY have cancer sometimes. People are so terrified of being confronted with mortality, especially by a 23-year-old.

I just needed to vent a bit because I never imagined I’d be attending the reunion while undergoing chemo

Tomorrow is my 10th chemo treatment out of 12, but I experience the weirdest feeling after chemo. It is usually better after I take a nap or use the bathroom. It’s not painful, but it’s a feeling of being deeply uncomfortable in my own body. It’s like a deep heaviness that makes me want to crawl out of my skin. Does anyone else experience this feeling? I don’t think there’s necessarily a solution but I’m wondering if it’s just me.

Just wondering if anyone has tried the brand Kavahana? I am a complete Kava noob and it’s the Kava bar nearest to my house that sells an instant version. Since it’s pricey I want to make sure I get the most bang for my buck. Thanks!