What would you do if every morning you woke up you were told you're the reason for your mom's misery
I didn't get good marks in my 11th science so now my mother wants me to study day and night so that I can at least pass out 12th. I didn't even want to take science I just wanted to study psychology which could've been possible with arts too. I got somewhat good marks in 10th so they made me take science. They're the reason I had to pursue science stream. My parents told me there won't be any scope in arts psychology later on and I should take science and give neet to become a psychiatrist. Now every morning, I'm told that I'm a failure and I won't make it anywhere if I don't study the whole day. My mom says I'm the reason she falls sick, I'm the reason we can't shift (cuz my school would be too far then so they're waiting for my 12th to be over), I'm the reason for her pains, that she'd be 75% better if only I studied properly. And apparently, i am the reason for everything that goes wrong in my parents' lives. I genuinely hate waking up in the morning where I have to hear these things even before i open my eyes. I wish every night that i don't wake up the next morning. My whole day just goes by getting scolded for each and every action I do. Everytime I make a noise I'm reminded how much I've ruined my mom's life so I don't even make a single noise anymore. I don't make a noise when I laugh, cry, or do anything at all. Getting scolded is one thing that i DESPISE yet that's what I have to deal with every single day without a break. I don't know what to feel anymore.