ESFP or ENFP? (High Se and high Ne??)
I'll first start by saying I do not know too much about cognitive functions and how they work EXACTLY, so I'm asking from help from others to ask 1. Can I be Se/Ne somehow? 2. If so, would that just make me an ExFP on the four letter MBTI? 3. If not, how on earth do I determine if I'm SeNi or NeSi?
I promise I did my research, i just particularly cannot grasp the concept of sensing nor intuition at all. It took me several hours over 2 days to understand the basic concept of those four functions. So I barely understand them at all, let alone which set is more like me. I don't really see myself in any of them. I know I'm 10000% TeFi though, especially Te. I saw myself in that immediately.
The gist of Se vs Si that I understood was that Se is focusing on your immediate, present environment while Si is more like learning from your past experiences and using it as a guideline for the present (??). Bit less confusing than intuition. I have no idea what to think of that, I don't relate to either of them, but I think I'm more Se? Once again, not really sure what this is even supposed to apply to. I don't think I've ever had a problem or anything where I had to use my past experiences as a guideline, I do focus more on the present in that sense; but at the same time I live in my own head a lot. A lot more than being grounded in reality. So I guess that's more Si?? But I don't exactly act that way, though?
Ne/Ni was even more confusing for me to grasp, and barely so. Still cannot exactly wrap my head around why Ne and Ni must be mutually exclusive because I've yet to find a single online explanation or definition that doesn't use stupid metaphors or stereotypes. That one inverted tree metaphor haunts me. Cannot understand why you cannot be a brainstormer and explore unlimited possibilities while also narrowing things down to one conclusion and focusing on details. Those two things are not opposites to me at all? But I might be taking it all too literally.
Anyway, even with that aside, I do also think I am more Ne? Once again I have no idea how I think or act when it comes to that nor do I really know what specific situation these need to apply to? But I have recieved input from my two typology friends and they told me I was a lot more Ne, probably. Still can't really see it though.. then again can't see Ni either.
As far as MBTI goes I genuinely have related more to ESFP and I've been calling myself that, but if I HAD to pick between NiSe or SiNe I'd pick SiNe I guess? which would make me pretty much closer to/an ENFP? But I still see myself as more of an ESFP maybe? Neither one is completely me i guess.
Does NOT help that Se is ENFP demon function nor that Ne is ESFP demon function as well. Even if I'm leaning towards NeSi or NiSe the other two functions definitely aren't the least developed for me.
Would appreciate the input of anyone that knows a tiny bit about this more than I do, thank you.