
Fragile
Sleep wouldn't come.
Ah just laid there, starin' at the ceiling while Remy's steady breath filled the quiet room beside me.
Once upon a time, Ah would've heard his heartbeat too.
Now... nothin'.
Mah fingers curled into the blanket, and even that felt harder than it should've. Every day the weight of the world seemed ta grow just a little heavier. The mattress held me tighter. The air itself felt thicker. Ah couldn't remember the last time movin' didn't take effort.
Slowly, Ah lifted a hand toward the ceiling.
It trembled.
Not from fear.
From weakness.
A bitter laugh caught in mah throat before dyin' there.
“Look at ya...” Ah whispered to mahself. “Can't even lift yer own arm without shakin'.”
Ah turned onto mah side, facin' Remy. Even asleep, he looked ready ta carry the weight of the whole world if it meant nobody else had to.
Once, Ah would've done the same.
Now Ah wasn't sure Ah could carry myself.
Mah eyes stung as Ah reached for his hand beneath the blankets, holdin' it gently.
“Ah'm sorry, cher...” Ah whispered into the darkness. “Ah don't feel like Rogue anymore.”