u/teacherwenger

Why is our society set up to punish you for not knowing what you want to do at 18? Went to college because I was supposed to (BS in biology education), taught high school for three years, hated it, and now I'm working as a remodel carpenter in my home town. I've had a few travel adventures, but not nearly enough. I can't think of one job I'd like to do, or one way to spend a life that doesn't sound painfully boring. All the fun stuff seems open mostly to younger people, and all the training programs seem prohibitively expensive and costly of what limited time left I have on earth. I feel like I wasn't built for this world, or like I missed some crucial train that will never come back.

How can I find a job that doesn't grind my brain and soul down? how can I fill my life in meaningful ways? I've done drugs, traveled, had a zillion little relationships, held signs, given out food the the homeless, and nothing seems to give me any sense of direction. nothing clicks, everything feels tedious and hollow.

I know that this is Reddit, and I'm anticipating some kind of response that blames me or negs on me for simply complaining. Still, I'm at my wit's end here. I have no Idea what a life is supposed to look like.